Higher Without You

You can hold on if you want to,
But you know I never let you go.
Ain't nobody there to talk to,
Nobody's a whole in this life.

Only if you could see the bright side,
Of waking up and being alone.
If only you could see the future,
It's all yours now,
Cause I know I'll be higher without you now,
Keeping up a life somehow,
Oh you'll be lighter without me girl,
Feeling alright somehow.
I'll be higher without you now,
Keeping up a life somehow,
Oh you'll be lighter without me girl,
Feeling alright somehow.

Cause I know I'll be higher,
Without you.
Higher,
On my own.
You'll be higher,
Without me.
Higher,
On your own.

Higher without you now,
Keeping up a life somehow,
Oh you'll be lighter without me girl,
Feeling alright somehow
I'll be higher without you now,
Keeping up a life somehow,
Oh you'll be lighter without me girl,
Feeling alright somehow...
Feeling alright somehow...
Feeling alright somehow.

You can hold on if you want to,
But you know I never let you go.
Ain't nobody there to talk to,
Nobody's a whole in this life.

Only if you could see the bright side,
Of waking up and being alone.
If only you could see the future,
It's all yours now.

All I Want For Christmas

If we could all have our wishes come true in this life, what would yours be?

I know what mine would be. I’d wish for you both to come back to me.

You see, your mummy decided to take you out of my life a year ago when she asked the courts to stop me from being with you. Since then, things have worsened, with all contact between us being cut off.

Your mummy and I have not been in a great place for a while, but we tried to give you a good start in life. We promised to travel the selfless journey of parenthood together from the moment we laid eyes on you both. The hardest thing for me is to forgive myself for allowing this promise to be broken, leaving you without your daddy.

I wish I could turn back time.

My life has been full of wishes, and to say I’ve been blessed up until this nightmare began is a very truthful statement.

The memory of your births will never leave me. When I first laid my eyes on you both, I couldn’t quite understand how your mummy and I had created such perfect little people from scratch. Even to this moment, this memory still brings tears to my eyes.

A parent’s love reaches above and beyond anything else we feel as humans. My love for you has always been my strength, and my passion is to ensure you are happy and safe.

So right now, I wish I could hug you both as I used to whenever either of you were having a bad day, because I feel these days aren’t the best ones for any of us.

This Christmas will be empty without your morning cuddles and shrieks of excitement. It will not be the same without your laughter and conversations echoing through the house. You are my best friends, my laughter, my reason for believing in true love and most of all, you are both my reason for living. I wake up every morning hoping that my wishes come true and that my only wish for Christmas is to have you both come home.

To all the mothers and fathers reading this who have been alienated from their children, don’t give up hope; one day, the truth will be known.

To my own beautiful children, I hope to see you both very soon, and I hope your mummy has a change of heart. We are all human; humans make mistakes, and sometimes anger can cloud our judgment.

Your mummy is a good woman, and I will never say a bad word about her, even though she has been so cruel in her actions. I know the only people hurt by horrible statements and accusations in all this mess will be the two little people who matter the most.

Some day you will grow older, and someday, you may come across these stories and letters and wonder why?

Your memories of me, and all the wonderful things we did, will stay with you until you are old enough to find the answers for yourself.

So, my wish will stay as it is until I see those glimmering big brown and blue eyes and hear your beautiful voices again.

Love Daddy xx

Toxic People

How To Spot A Female Narcissist

Right, so you want to know how to spot a female narcissist, eh? Well, first off, let's talk about their physical appearance. These ladies, they like to dress to impress, if you know what I mean. They flaunt their sexy bits and bobs, and they're always going on about their hair and makeup, even for the most mundane tasks. Now, here's the thing, research has shown that narcissists are no better looking than anyone else, but these ladies, they think they're the bees' knees, the cat's pyjamas, the whole enchilada.

They're also big fans of brand names, oh yes. They feel entitled to the best of the best, and they're always buying new clothes, even when they don't need them. And when it comes to plastic surgery, they're more likely to go under the knife for a boob job than anything else. They just love being the centre of attention, and they'll even get a professional photographer to snap them for Facebook or online dating. They just can't resist showing off their best pics, can they?

Now, let's talk about their personality, shall we? These ladies, they insist on being the star of the show. They're always the life and soul of the party, and they're very good at selling themselves. They're also very materialistic and have a real sense of entitlement. They think they're special and deserve all the fame, fortune, success, and happiness in the world.

But here's the thing, they're also prone to envy, and they just love to undermine others. They'll tell you all sorts of secrets about how the two of you are so much better than everyone else. And when their friends do well, they'll find ways to put them down and make them feel small. And empathy? Forget about it. These ladies lack empathy, common courtesy, and they'll put you down without a second thought. And if they can exploit you, they will. They're also super competitive and think they're smarter than everyone else.

Now, when things go wrong, they'll never take the blame. Oh no, it's always someone else's fault. And if you confront them, they'll act all haughty, impatient, and condescending. They'll make excuses for their behaviour, and they'll never admit to lying to get what they want. And if you reject them, watch out, because they can get a bit psycho. They'll engage in risky behaviours, they've got addictive personalities, and they're prone to aggressive behaviour.

And finally, their moods and actions can be pretty unpredictable. You'll have trouble figuring out what they want or where you stand. They're capable of short-term regret and can apologize profusely, but it won't be long before they're back to their old narcissistic ways.

So, there you have it. That's how you can spot a female narcissist. Keep your eyes peeled, folks!